Today is my due date and I am still waiting for my
Scorpio. It’s quite a lot to deal with. Here’s why:
1.
I truly thought the baby would be early- maybe
before Halloween- maybe even as a Libra! When you’re wrong about something you
had such a strong feeling about, you doubt yourself. It’s a little disappointing.
2.
I’ve been pregnant 40 weeks and we are so
totally ready for our little angel to arrive. I’m very anxious! Walking past an
empty bassinet every day is making a mockery out of me.
3.
I’ve been pregnant 40 weeks and HELLO! I’m
incredibly uncomfortable.
4.
Waiting for your first baby is frustrating. No
matter how much you read and research (and I’ve done both extensively) you
STILL don’t really know what to expect. Every day I think it can come and every
day I’ve been wrong. It’s like my body is playing tricks on me and it’s exhausting.
PLUS while I am stressing each day- now that the due date has arrived- my phone
has been blowing up asking for updates. A constant reminder that THERE ARE NO
UPDATES!
5.
My mom is coming to town Tuesday night. I was/am
hoping the baby would be here before her so she could see us all settled in our
new home together. Now half of her vacation may involve having to put up with
her over-pregnant, hormonal, stressed-out daughter.
6.
If the baby doesn’t come out on its’ own by
Thursday, November 8th, I will be checked into the hospital to begin
induction and have the baby on November 9th. This is a perfectly
fine birthday for any Scorpio- but what I’d really prefer (and hope for) is
that the baby arrives on its own- not forced out by a team of doctors.
So here I am, still waiting. I’ve been doing everything I
can on my end to help this baby out- Googled
every home inducing remedy to no success. At this very hormonal time, I’ve
been extremely emotional ever since my doctor and I planned the induction for
next week. No one’s been able to put me at ease; I can’t relax. I’ve almost
completely forgotten how to.
With all this heavy on my mind and heart- I do what most people
do in times of crisis. I pray, I believe. And then, as usual, I go to the
stars. What would they say?
I’ve often joked The
Secret Language of Relationships is much like the astrological bible in
a sense. There are so many answers one can find within its realms. Today,
through this text, I was able to finally feel comfort.
Knowing my odds (and the fact that even if I went into labor
right now the baby probably wouldn’t arrive until tomorrow, the 3rd)
I decided to learn a little more about our future child via its birth week: The Week of Depth: November 3-11.
According to “the book,” Frank and I couldn’t ask for a
better week to have a baby. Those born in The Week of Depth are: very profound-
shunning superficiality, successful-hard workers, extremely empathetic, passionate,
loyal, very physical, “unusually kind,
giving, and quite sentimental…kind to animals and small children…and make
excellent parents.”
These are wonderful traits any parent would be proud to
attribute to their children. Other tidbits I found that may make the beginning
of our lives together a bit easier was: “They
need to sleep soundly for long periods of time…and enjoy the pleasures of the
table.” (p. 141). Well at least, according to “the book,” we can count on
little baby being a good sleeper and eater!
What really excited me was the title of Frank and mine’s
relationship with the baby. You see, in “the book” every two people,
represented by their birth weeks, are given a title to describe the
relationship, along with its strengths, weaknesses, advice, and short
description of the two combined chemistries. For example, Frank (born “Week of
the Genius” [Jan. 23-30]) and I (born “Cusp of Prophecy” [Dec. 19-25]) are best
love; our strengths are convincing, versatile, and affectionate, and our
relationship is entitled, “Speaks for
Itself,” as in, “what this duo
produces speaks for itself.” (p. 765). Well THAT’S for sure!
For me and the baby, are strengths will be lighthearted,
lively, and passionate; we are best marriage- although it explains in the
description, “this pairing could be a
once-in-a-lifetime experience, no matter what type of relationship it governs.”
(p. 719). Best of all, our title is “Lively
Interchange.” How very fitting:)
I’ve always teased Frank about his infamous week being
infamously friendly with ALL the weeks of the year. His and the baby are no exception
as they are happily entitled “Nothing
Short of Amazing.” (You can say THAT again!) It’d figure those two would
get along so well- everyone does with Frank! They are best love and their
strengths include miraculous, productive, and exploratory. It states: “When these two combine their energies the
results can be nothing short of miraculous…the chemistry here is somewhat
unfathomable.” For this I am not surprised- makes perfect sense! It goes
further: “These two are drawn to the
supernatural- they love horror stories, science fiction and fantasy. Exploring
the dark side of human experience, both on screen and off, is common here.”
(p. 722). For those of you who do not know Frank, let me put it like this- one
of the things he is most excited about when it comes to the baby is watching
all the Star Wars, anime, (and other
things I don’t particularly care for) with it!
I’m so glad I looked into all the glory we can expect from
our little one as this new week approaches. Looks like the best thing that
could have happened was the baby to just take its time and arrive when it’s
ready. (Again- I hope it arrives on its own accord- but even still- so long as
the baby is happy, healthy, and safe, there’s nothing more I can ask for.)
Following my beliefs and faith in the stars has taken an enormous
amount of weight off my shoulders. I’ve actually felt it melt away as I
researched and wrote all this time. The main thing is, even though it feels
like it’s been an eternity, the baby WILL arrive this week, the week of depth,
and luckily for all of us- what a wonderful week it will be.
<3.
