Still Waiting...

 Today is my due date and I am still waiting for my Scorpio. It’s quite a lot to deal with. Here’s why:

1.       I truly thought the baby would be early- maybe before Halloween- maybe even as a Libra! When you’re wrong about something you had such a strong feeling about, you doubt yourself. It’s a little disappointing.

2.       I’ve been pregnant 40 weeks and we are so totally ready for our little angel to arrive. I’m very anxious! Walking past an empty bassinet every day is making a mockery out of me.

3.       I’ve been pregnant 40 weeks and HELLO! I’m incredibly uncomfortable.

4.       Waiting for your first baby is frustrating. No matter how much you read and research (and I’ve done both extensively) you STILL don’t really know what to expect. Every day I think it can come and every day I’ve been wrong. It’s like my body is playing tricks on me and it’s exhausting. PLUS while I am stressing each day- now that the due date has arrived- my phone has been blowing up asking for updates. A constant reminder that THERE ARE NO UPDATES!

5.       My mom is coming to town Tuesday night. I was/am hoping the baby would be here before her so she could see us all settled in our new home together. Now half of her vacation may involve having to put up with her over-pregnant, hormonal, stressed-out daughter.

6.       If the baby doesn’t come out on its’ own by Thursday, November 8^th, I will be checked into the hospital to begin induction and have the baby on November 9^th. This is a perfectly fine birthday for any Scorpio- but what I’d really prefer (and hope for) is that the baby arrives on its own- not forced out by a team of doctors.

So here I am, still waiting. I’ve been doing everything I can on my end to help this baby out- Googled every home inducing remedy to no success. At this very hormonal time, I’ve been extremely emotional ever since my doctor and I planned the induction for next week. No one’s been able to put me at ease; I can’t relax. I’ve almost completely forgotten how to.

With all this heavy on my mind and heart- I do what most people do in times of crisis. I pray, I believe. And then, as usual, I go to the stars. What would they say? 

I’ve often joked The Secret Language of Relationships is much like the astrological bible in a sense. There are so many answers one can find within its realms. Today, through this text, I was able to finally feel comfort. 

Knowing my odds (and the fact that even if I went into labor right now the baby probably wouldn’t arrive until tomorrow, the 3^rd) I decided to learn a little more about our future child via its birth week: The Week of Depth: November 3-11.  

According to “the book,” Frank and I couldn’t ask for a better week to have a baby. Those born in The Week of Depth are: very profound- shunning superficiality, successful-hard workers, extremely empathetic, passionate, loyal, very physical, “unusually kind, giving, and quite sentimental…kind to animals and small children…and make excellent parents.”

These are wonderful traits any parent would be proud to attribute to their children. Other tidbits I found that may make the beginning of our lives together a bit easier was: “They need to sleep soundly for long periods of time…and enjoy the pleasures of the table.” (p. 141). Well at least, according to “the book,” we can count on little baby being a good sleeper and eater!

What really excited me was the title of Frank and mine’s relationship with the baby. You see, in “the book” every two people, represented by their birth weeks, are given a title to describe the relationship, along with its strengths, weaknesses, advice, and short description of the two combined chemistries. For example, Frank (born “Week of the Genius” [Jan. 23-30]) and I (born “Cusp of Prophecy” [Dec. 19-25]) are best love; our strengths are convincing, versatile, and affectionate, and our relationship is entitled, “Speaks for Itself,” as in, “what this duo produces speaks for itself.” (p. 765). Well THAT’S for sure!

For me and the baby, are strengths will be lighthearted, lively, and passionate; we are best marriage- although it explains in the description, “this pairing could be a once-in-a-lifetime experience, no matter what type of relationship it governs.” (p. 719). Best of all, our title is “Lively Interchange.” How very fitting:)

I’ve always teased Frank about his infamous week being infamously friendly with ALL the weeks of the year. His and the baby are no exception as they are happily entitled “Nothing Short of Amazing.” (You can say THAT again!) It’d figure those two would get along so well- everyone does with Frank! They are best love and their strengths include miraculous, productive, and exploratory. It states: “When these two combine their energies the results can be nothing short of miraculous…the chemistry here is somewhat unfathomable.” For this I am not surprised- makes perfect sense! It goes further: “These two are drawn to the supernatural- they love horror stories, science fiction and fantasy. Exploring the dark side of human experience, both on screen and off, is common here.” (p. 722). For those of you who do not know Frank, let me put it like this- one of the things he is most excited about when it comes to the baby is watching all the Star Wars, anime, (and other things I don’t particularly care for) with it!

I’m so glad I looked into all the glory we can expect from our little one as this new week approaches. Looks like the best thing that could have happened was the baby to just take its time and arrive when it’s ready. (Again- I hope it arrives on its own accord- but even still- so long as the baby is happy, healthy, and safe, there’s nothing more I can ask for.)

Following my beliefs and faith in the stars has taken an enormous amount of weight off my shoulders. I’ve actually felt it melt away as I researched and wrote all this time. The main thing is, even though it feels like it’s been an eternity, the baby WILL arrive this week, the week of depth, and luckily for all of us- what a wonderful week it will be.

<3.